When a day starts off on the wrong foot…

You are awaken at 5 am by the blast of the alarm clock that is now on your cell phone for there is no need to have those old alarm clocks that when they used to go off you’d thrust in bed. Nowadays it starts goes off low and gradually gets louder, similar to the way your mom used to wake you up on those lazy Sunday mornings to go to church.  On this particular day you wake up in tears with an empty feeling in your chest so awful that it hurts. What is the origin of this feeling, a bad dream, a good dream that ended because you woke up, or the simple fact that you miss someone who is not here any longer? Whatever it may be, you need to shake it off for the morning has started and you need to face a long day of dealing with other people, who have nothing to do with what emotions are bursting inside of you.

You get in your car and as you drive off you realize that you have forgotten some things at home and if you go back to get it you will end up without a parking spot and traffic will certainly jam up. Therefore, you try to shake that off too and keep on going.

You reach your destination and at the very first class of the day you are hit in the face with a handful of disrespect. You clearly state that students cannot enter after the bell has rung and they could care less and just ignore what you requested and break the school rules as if they are the owners or the rulers. Mind you, to them this is ok for they are standing at your door anyway. So, you decide that you are going to let this go by too, but before you make sure that they are clear of what has just happened and why your mood has swung.

Moving on you then realize that no one has done what had been assigned and no one wants to do it either, because they have a Math test and since they have not understood what goes on in that subject during the whole semester and all of a sudden they think that they can learn everything there is to be learned on the subject during your class, a few minutes before the time of the test.

Bell rings and the second class starts. Your mood improves a bit because it is a pretty awesome group and the previous classes had been neat. (Neat, pretty old word to use, perhaps because it expresses the feeling of this writer on a day like today.) They come stumbling in; at least they greeted you, unlike the previous group. All of a sudden a verbal fight starts; harsh words, ugly words and aggressive tones of voice all at the same time. Although the group is small, it seems like you are in a soccer stadium waiting for a final championship match to start between Sao Paulo and Palmeiras.

Stunned and in awe you simply ask them ‘Should I interfere or are you guys just throwing around these sweet words for free this morning to cheer me up?’ They stop, stare at you, some giggle because it is an awkward situation and they are embarrassed and others try to answer your question, which does not need to be answered.

All of a sudden a voice comes from within and says ‘Stop fighting this tide and just let it go by. If they do not feel like doing anything, just don’t.’ But how can it be? How can you not do what you have planned? Do they not realize that you have a class plan that you have spent some hours of the previous day working on it and planning it? Then again, they are kids. You are the one who is the adult, you have to set the example and not given in to their laziness. However, you are a human too and on a day like today you really do not wish to move a finger on the matter.

Now sitting behind the computer you refuse to imagine what the rest of the day will be like; it is out of your control anyway.

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