The First Father’s Day without Father

Guess that when you lose a loved one, especially one of your parent’s; it takes time and courage to get through “the first” after the passing. In my case, my father.

The first time going to mom and dad’s house and dad is not there. This is perhaps the hardest step to take. You walk in the door and automatically say “hi dad”, but his favorite seat is empty. The second time around you might repeat the action but eventually you get used to seeing the empty seat.

The first Sunday family lunch and dad is not there. The whole family gets together for a BBQ and dad is not there to tell his repeated jokes and sit by your side.

The first vacation trip and dad is not there. You try to enjoy yourself but you keep thinking how much dad would enjoy being there.

The first time you celebrate your birthday without getting a hug from dad.

Dad’s birthday knowing that dad will not be there.

And the first Father’s Day without dad. Father’s Day will be celebrated in Brazil this coming Sunday, August 13, 2017; it’ll be 6 months that dad passed on the day before. When I watch all the TV commercials about Father’s Day, I catch myself thinking: He’s not here anymore. 

It is a bitter sweet feeling because I know he is where he should be, but this day has lost its magic for me. I am starting to feel like a fish out of the water.

Written August 11,2017 Todos os direitos reservados a Meire Marion.

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