For the past 3 months, the mall at the beach was his place of investigation. He would go there after work hours even though he had lost his job when he started this and walk around until 10 pm when the guards went around asking everyone to leave. He never bought anything. How could he? He there was no pay check coming in only the piles of bills. Sure, he was in his early 30s and would probably find another job, but he messed up really bad and there was no way this last company would give him a letter of recommendation. There was only one way to relieve himself from this situation – jumping.
He
had read articles about why people decide to die by suicide and for sure his
family, especially his ex-fiancée, would find it difficult to imagine the
reason – the would be no letter. It would be quick. It had to be.
While
he was researching about suicide, he came across an article that read that the
most common mental health condition behind a person's decision to die by
suicide is severe depression. Depression can make people feel high levels of
emotional pain and loss of hope, making them unable to see any other way to
find relief than ending their own life. Another reason a person may decide to
take their own life is when facing a loss or the fear of a loss. When people
have lost all hope and don't feel able to change this hopelessness, it can
overshadow all of the good things in their life, making suicide seem like a
viable option. If
a person has chronic pain or illness with no hope of a cure or reprieve from
suffering, suicide may seem like a way to regain dignity or control of their
life. Of all of these reasons losing his job and feeling like a failure was his
biggest reason. He wasn´t depressed, he had lost all hope.
How
could he marry this sweet lovely woman and provide for the future family if he
had nothing to bring to the table?
His
mind was set. For three months he stayed at the mall pretending to be at work.
He checked how the mall closed and when the guards reached the 4th
floor to make sure everyone had left. There were some places the guards did not
bother to look at and he could hide there. Around 10 pm he could put his plan
into action.
While
on the 4th floor he would look down and see that he would have to
jump aiming towards the coffee shop. It was the lowest level which made the 4th
floor turn into the 5th.
The
day had arrived. The mall speakers announced closing time. All the stores were
shutting closing for the day. The guards were on the way up. Smoothly he placed
his slim body over the railing. He stopped for a second and noticed a pretty
young girl wiping the tables at the coffee shop. He didn´t want to traumatize her,
but he had no choice.
As
the guards yelled and ran towards him, he let go.
Written:
January 21, 2024 (based on a true story, however, the reason why is a work of
fiction)
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