Making Decisions

 

How do you make decisions? Do you ponder about it? Do you talk to your friends or family about the choices you need to make? Do you come up with pro and con lists?

When I need to decide about something important, I make a list- confession: I am a list person. (I make shopping lists, to-do lists, password lists, so why wouldn´t I make a decision list?)  I always make a list of the pros and the cons for a few days, put the list away and then take it out and look at it when I am approaching the deadline of the decision-making. Because I have been doing this since I was a young girl, if a decision needs to be made on the spot, my brain naturally makes up those lists. As I stare out in the open air, I can see those lists which help me make a quick decision. Now you might be wondering what I consider quick decisions - usually accepting invitations, what clothes to wear; however, what I consider list making decision over a few days is buying a new car , buying a new house, making a health decision whether or not to get a surgery( if I have that option).

I guess the reason behind this post is because of the vaccine for COVID, which 50% of my doctors believe that I should not take the vaccine due to my spinal cord condition and the other 50% think that it's no big deal I should just go and take it.

My list has become pretty long and on one hand a big downside would be death because if I don't take the vaccine and catch COVID it could be threatening to my life. On the other hand, if I do take the vaccine and it does affect my spinal cord I can stop walking again and it is uncertain whether the situation will be reversible this time around. Then you hear people saying that lightning does not strike twice but it does so I'm still making my lists, and, in this case, I have not listened to people other than my doctors because they're the ones who know or don´t know what problem I could have. Therefore, my list is pretty long right now, and it's been in the drawer for a couple of months actually, so we'll see.

Mind you, I am pro vaccine. Pro science. However, in my situation if they only knew what happened to me in 2011. If they named it like Lupus, MS or any other disease, I could make a quick decision. Only time will tell. For now, I continue to be the girl in the bubble.

Written: June 6, 2021

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